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Chapter 196 Burs

"What is this? 12-22-20XX is today..." she mumbled, trying to understand the reminder. Did he have something to pass today or something? What was it? What was with these start and end dates?

Luo Xiaolei didn’t know why but she felt that something was hidden in this reminder. Her curiosity made her focus on it and she momentarily forgot about her morning rush.

"It started from July and the deadline is today... it’s exactly five months now..."

For some reason, mentioning the words ’five months’ made Luo Xiaolei feel like there was something more to it. Her brain seemed to think that there was some significance to this date. "Five months? What’s with these five..."

Luo Xiaolei’s eyes widened as she was suddenly reminded about her promise to Yu Chen. She remembered that she had promised him that she would be his fiancée and live with him for five months. She didn’t really remember what day it was but when she started to calculate the date, that day was last July 22!

Looking at the dates again, Luo Xiaolei’s jaw dropped in utter surprise. She was convinced that this reminder was about that. What was the meaning of this? Why did he put a reminder for this? What did he mean by putting the word, deadline? Questions kept popping up again.

Luo Xiaolei knew that there was no way she could get any answers but this made her emotional again. The memories of how they met in this second life of hers flashed in her head like movie scenes and it was making her heart throb. She remembered that she was planning to break the engagement after five months so that meant that she was supposed to do it tomorrow.

"How ironic..." she said as her eyes welled. "I can’t believe it’s only been five months. I feel like years have gone by. I can’t believe I was originally planning to leave you after today." She smiled, a little bit bitterly as she looked at him.

"Big panda, why did you put the word deadline for today? Were you talking about the deadline of our engagement?" she continued asking despite getting no response at all. And then, for the first time, she burst out of control.

"Yu Chen... don’t you think it’s time for you to wake up now? I really... really miss you so much. Don’t you miss me too? Don’t you want to see me again? Why are you still not waking up? I’m getting scared now... I don’t know how long I can hold on. I miss you so much. I want to hear your voice, I want to see your smile, I want to kiss you hard... I really miss you so much.

Tell me... what should I do for you to wake up? Tell me please, I will do anything... just don’t leave me alone. I will do anything... so please... please wake up now."

Luo Xiaolei was sobbing that Gu Wei, who quietly entered the room to tell her that everything was ready, froze by the door. He didn’t know what to do. He wanted to console her but he knew there was no way he could do that. He might have been with big boss for longer than her but he didn’t know half of what she was feeling. How could he console her when he himself was desolate without his boss. He looked at her with sad eyes. For some reason, he somehow wanted her to vent like this because he knew that since Yu Chen fell into a coma, Luo Xiaolei never showed them any weakness. He was even sure that this was the first time she sobbed to her heart’s content for a long time. He knew that he should let her air out what she was bottling up so he left the room and stood guard outside the door, preventing anyone from entering the room.

"I know I promised to wait, no matter how long but... I’m afraid. I’m scared that you won’t wake up anymore. And it really hurts here," her voice were filled with anguish as she pounded on her chest. "I know I should be strong but, it’s painful. I’m missing you so much and it’s getting worse. I didn’t know that I would feel like this. I didn’t know that it would feel this bad. I thought I would be fine as long as I see you right here every day, as long as I have the little buns and everyone with me and as long as I keep myself busy enough but... it’s not working. I can’t stop missing you and it’s killing me. I really want you to wake up now."

Luo Xiaolei didn’t know how long she cried for. It seemed like all the tears she held had finally come to the surface and were now out of control. She couldn’t even control it herself. She had been suppressing herself not to cry these past months but it looked like it had become too heavy that she finally burst.

She never once vented on him like this. All she kept on telling him before were pleasant things that were happening around her, like her achievement, the company’s situations, the little buns sweet messages and other pleasant matters. She never cried this hard before. She never said what was in her heart to this extent before. So after crying for a long time, she felt like the huge stone in her heart had been lifted away. She felt relieved, as if she could finally breathe again and continue waiting for him.

After she calmed down, Luo Xiaolei then wiped her tears and stood up. Her complexion at least became better.

"I’m sorry for bursting out like that." She smiled, a little embarrassed before she breathed deeply again. She then kissed both his cheeks this time before she whispered in his ear.

"I love you." she uttered before she left the room.

As soon as the door closed, Yu Chen’s fingers moved.