BXBX NOVEL Vol. 2 Chapter 3: Chapter 3
Vol. 2 Chapter 3: Chapter 3
Translated by Naralara
Edited by Naralara
“I’m going to go now.”
When the car stopped, Inseop carefully spoke out. There was no return.
Lee Wooyeon was almost silent all the way.
In fact, Lee Wooyeon had been in a bad mood for a while. As soon as Inseop got into the car, he clicked on his home address stored in the navigation system.
Lee Wooyeon talked about living together about 10 times, but Inseop rejected every time. He tried to reason with Lee Wooyeon who didn’t understand that he promised his parents he would live an independent adult life when he came to Korea.
Choi Inseop was fiddling with the seat belt, and asked.
“Are you angry?”
“Who?”
Lee Wooyeon asked while holding the steering wheel. In his mind, he wanted to drive the car right into the old villa where Inseop lived. He thought it won’t matter because it was not murder, arson, looting, or rape like CEO Kim said earlier.
“I’m sorry.”
Only then did Lee Wooyeon turn his head.
“I’m sorry for lying earlier… I apologize.”
Inseop bowed his head. Lee Wooyeon looked at him gently.
“Am I that difficult?”
“What?
“If you were honest, do you think I wouldn’t have let you go?”
“Oh, no. It’s not that.”
“It doesn’t matter to anyone else, but I want Inseop to be honest with me. I always try to be honest with you.”
The low voice sounded sad.
It was a complete lie. Lee Wooyeon did not reveal even half of his true self. What good would that be if Inseop ran away thousands of miles after seeing him as he was.
“It may be burdensome for Inseop to make such efforts for a person like me.”
“No, not at all, not at all. Don’t think about it.”
Inseop jumped up and shook his head. When Lee Wooyeon’s expression barely softened, Inseop finally grabbed Wooyeon’s hand and made an earnest expression, saying, “It’s true.”
Fuck. Lee Wooyeon cursed inside. Inseop’s smile was good, but it couldn’t be helped that his teary eyes were his taste. He was gifted with this trashy personality.
“Then don’t do that again.”
“Yes. I will.”
Inseop nodded eagerly.
That’s it. A dog doll. He moved his head like a bobble dog doll in the car. Don’t they look alike? He remembered what Manager Cha said as if he was teasing Inseop.
Lee Wooyeon reached out and grabbed Inseop’s neck. It was as thin as if it would break with just a little force. Inseop looked up at Lee Wooyeon with his big eyes like a newborn calf.
“Open your mouth.”
At the sudden order of Lee Wooyeon, Inseop opened his lips unexpectedly. Permission had been granted. The tongue, which was firm, swept through the mouth with a squishy sound. Inseop was surprised and tightened his grip on the seat belt. Even if it was an underground parking lot, it was a place where people passed by. Someone could have seen it.
“Uh…wa,wait.”
Inseop tried to push Lee Wooyeon, but it was useless. Lee Wooyeon kissed Inseop with his chin clutched so that he could not move. The sound of the kiss and breathing was drowned out by the music from the radio.
Lee Wooyeon didn’t like kissing very much. The act of opening each other’s lips and giving and receiving saliva was not very pleasant. For him, kissing was just a step to take off his partner’s clothes easily, and their mouth was just another hole to put his dick in.
But this was definitely different.
Lee Wooyeon stared down at Inseop with his eyes closed tightly. Lee Wooyeon’s sadistic affection was stimulated by his shameful but pitiful gesture to somehow match the partner’s movements.
He was just thinking of managing his bad temper and sending him home.
Click. He heard the seat belt clip open. Lee Wooyeon’s wide shoulder weighed down to one side before he knew it. Lee Wooyeon supported Inseop’s back head with his palm and raised his head to twist the angle of his lips. The sound of a sweet breath quickly flowed from the deeply engaged lips. When he put his hand inside his shirt, he felt soft skin around his palm. Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop, who was trying to shrink away.
It was then. The headlights of the approaching car from the other side shone on the windshield. They were at an angle where they could not be seen anyway, so Lee Wooyeon continued to kiss without paying any attention. However, an unexpected hand stopped him.
“Stay still.”
“…”
Choi Inseop hugged Lee Wooyeon and covered his chest and whispered.
“A car just passed by, wait a minute, like this…”
Even while saying that, Inseop covers Lee Woo-yeon’s face with his trembling hands. Inseop was pitifully pale.
Lee Wooyeon stared at Inseop.
Attempts to understand other people’s ways of thinking were extremely wasteful to Lee Wooyeon. It was a long time ago that he quit because he was lazy. But sometimes he couldn’t help being curious suddenly.
How did this person look at the world and think? At this moment, did they truly believe they can protect themselves? If it was a reporter who was determined to wait, he would have taken a picture earlier and disappeared, not at that time.
How can he be so naive, so stupid, so lovely.
Choi Inseop sighed after checking the light of the car moving away from the parking lot.
“When will you let me go?”
At Lee Wooyeon’s question, Inseop finally loosened his arm.
“I’m sorry. You were surprised that I pulled you suddenly.”
In fact, Lee Wooyeon heard the car engine while kissing. But it didn’t bother him at all. The apartment where Inseop lived was more like an apartment villa. The parking lot was also cramped, so there were not many cars parked. It was natural to memorize all the numbers and models of cars parked in the parking lot while taking Inseop home. Pulling over, Lee Wooyeon habitually checked all the cars in the parking lot. There was no unfamiliar vehicle.
Inseop muttered, looking around with still anxious eyes.
“I should have noticed someone coming. I’m sorry. I’m not in my right mind…as a manager.”
“You’re not a manager today.”
“But… “
Lee Wooyeon ruffled Inseop’s messy hair and continued to talk.
“I was also distracted. Don’t apologize for this.”
Because of the previous incident, Lee Wooyeon had developed a habit of looking around and checking for any suspicious people. But he didn’t bother to say it. He didn’t want to worry Inseop.
“And you said you’d take responsibility for me after my celebrity life.”
“Yes. I’ll take responsibility.’
“That’s good.”
Lee Wooyeon smiled playfully.
“No, responsibility is responsibility, but I don’t want Lee Wooyeon to quit your job because of me.”
Inseop’s voice continued in a serious voice.
“As I said before, I like Lee Wooyeon as an actor. If possible, I hope you will work as a good actor for a long time.”
‘I think Inseop would be good at managing if he was the president of the fan club. No, isn’t he already doing it?’
Lee Wooyeon recalled CEO Kim’s joke mixed with laughter.
“I would be in trouble if I didn’t become an actor. Inseop wouldn’t have seen me if I wasn’t.”
“No. Absolutely not.”
“I heard you say you like Lee Wooyeon as an actor.”
“I like Lee Woo-yeon, too. Actor Lee Wooyeon has a different meaning. It’s cool, I mean, you look like a different person, but…”
Lee Wooyeon’s had a smirk on his face. He didn’t open his mouth even though he knew Inseop didn’t mean it that way.
“… You know, my heart.”
“I don’t know.”
Choi Inseop was flustered by Lee Wooyeon’s brazen answer. At a glance, he saw Inseop crumpling the hem of his clothes, mumbling something
That moment, he decided to stop teasing.
“I have had a heart disease since I was born. So I heard that my biological parents probably gave up on me.”
At the sudden words, Lee Wooyeon stopped moving and looked at Inseop.
“However, I have never blamed or hated my biological parents. I thought they had their own reasons.”
“I see.”
Choi Inseop was thinking.
It’s not just a word or a charade, it was the real thing. Lee Wooyeon stared at him with a straight heart that he could not have even if he died and woke up.
“I was an unwelcome student at school. I was an Asian adoptee who was weak, slow in everything… and not as handsome as Wooyeon,”
Choi Inseop continued with a shy smile.
“But I was a happy person. My family, how do I say this? Haha, they’re really amazing people.”
Inseop’s cheeks were burning up as if he was happy just thinking about his family.
“My parents, I’m sorry to my biological parents, but… They’re the best parents in the world.”
Lee Wooyeon recalled the faces he saw when Inseop was hospitalized. They were people with good smiles that he could guess how Inseop was loved and how he grew up.
“Even if I give up my life, it won’t be a waste. I love my family with all my heart.”
Inseop raised his head and looked at Lee Wooyeon.
“I came to Korea, leaving those people behind.”
“…”
“I decided to live in Korea because I wanted to be with Lee Wooyeon. I want to continue to do that.”
Lee Wooyeon looked at Inseop without any expression.
After the long confession, Inseop scratched his cheek and opened the car door, feeling sad when a response did not return
Thud.
A hand stretched out from behind closed the car door in a hurry. Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop from behind. Inseop’s heart was beating fast as if he was very nervous.
“I’m sorry, Inseop.”
“Yes?”
“A guy like me likes you.”
Even his feelings of liking were extraordinary. He was neither kind nor beautiful as a normal person. His twisted affairs were even hideous compared to Inseop’s.
“Don’t say that.”
Inseop murmured softly. Lee Wooyeon kissed his head lightly.
“Should I sleep with you today?”
Inseop blushed at Lee Wooyeon’s question.
“It’s been a while since I worked, so I have a lot to prepare…I’ll sleep well alone,”
Inseop said with his eyes slightly lowered.
“Yes, of course.”
Lee Wooyeon, who thought he would hold on to him for a long time, let go of his hand.
“Hurry up, before I change my mind.”
“Yes. Then go home safely.”
Lee Wooyeon leaned against the steering wheel and looked at Inseop opening the car door. Inseop, who had been walking, came back to his car and tapped the window. Lee Wooyeon asked as he lowered the window glass.
“Why?”
“I just remembered what I wanted to say.”
“Have you changed your mind? I like Car sex, too.”
“Oh, no. It’s not that… “
Inseop hesitated and continued with his head down.
“… I wanted to say thank you for liking me.”
Lee Wooyeon smiled low, frowning as if he was troubled. Inseop raised his head in surprise.
“I apologize if it sounded bad. I don’t speak very well…”
“It’s not that.”
Lee Wooyeon tightened his grip on the steering wheel.
“Inseop.”
“Yes.”
Lee Wooyeon put his head out to the passenger seat and kissed Inseop lightly. Then he said, “Go in quickly,” and let him go with a push. Inseop bowed his head and walked toward the emergency exit.
Lee Wooyeon looked at Inseop’s back with an expressionless face.
It was commonly known that APD patients, or people with antisocial personality disorder, do not feel emotions, but that was not true. Rather, he felt emotions clearly and simply. Most of them were one-dimensional emotions such as pleasure, anger, and desire, and the importance of emotions was a little different from ordinary people.
People who did not know how to control their desires lived as junkies or offenders. Fortunately, he learned how to accept his mental defects and compromise with society from an early age. So he was confident that he was better at controlling emotions than anyone else.
But often, the cruel desire that ruled when he was in front of Inseop suddenly soared. Even now, he was only thinking about bringing Inseop to the car and holding him and having sex all night.
If he did whatever he wanted, no one would stay with him after all. That’s what relationships are like. You had to be patient for your partner.
Now, what the doctor told him, who he doesn’t even remember the name, passed through his mind.
Inseop, who was walking, slowly looked back. He waved his hand when their eyes met. When Lee Wooyeon beckoned him to go in quickly, Inseop disappeared into the common entrance.
Lee Wooyeon exhaled a long breath.