Chapter 96 Elsa And Justin(II)
Keeping quiet for a while, Elsa said, "Robby and I—we tried to get physical but we couldn\'t do it. And you know why?"
Justin closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "El, I don\'t know why you are telling me this but I don\'t wanna know and I couldn\'t care less."
"Of course," she mockingly smirked. "Why would you care?"
When she tried to walk away, Justin grabbed her waist and pulled her closer. "Why should I care about something you did when we were not officially together? You want me to get mad at you for almost sleeping with some guy you were officially dating when I was being a coward?"
When Elsa stopped struggling in his embrace, he remarked, "If it makes you feel any better than I am not happy with what I just heard but I am not mad at you, I am mad at myself."
He gently caressed her cheeks. "If I hadn\'t let you go, nothing would have happened." He sighed, "I am sorry, I am sorry for everything I have done, all the foolish impulsive decisions I have made."
He pulled her into his embrace and rested his chin on the top of her head. "I once promised you I would never make you cry but since the last three years, I have broken that promise a hundred times."
He kissed the top of her head and tightened his grip around her.
After a long silent hug, Elsa pulled away. "I couldn\'t go past the kiss—"
When he frowned a little, she explained, "When Robby kissed me i-it didn\'t feel right, it felt very weird and wrong. And even though we were not together, I felt like I was cheating on you."
Elsa never told this to anyone because she thought it was stupid and naive of her to feel that way.
He gently caressed her cheeks as his lips curled upwards.
When she saw his sly smile, she slapped his chest and frowned. "Don\'t make fun of me, I know it\'s stupid."
"Who said it\'s stupid?" He shrugged. "I just find it very adorable."
Staring at him for a couple of seconds, she tiptoed and started touching his forehead followed by the back of his head.
"You didn\'t hit your head somewhere, did you?"
Justin: " "
"Nothing seems to be wrong—" She pursed her lips. "Did they give you too many medications?"
"Why?"
"Because you are acting weird."
Justin: " "
When he shut himself up and did not say anything, he was weird and the heartless one. But now when he was showing his true feelings, he was still somehow the weird one.
How was this even fair?
Elsa sighed and placed her hand on his cheek. "What do you want from me this time Justin? If you are trying to coax me to go back to Russia so that we never cross paths, I will do it. You don\'t have to be all sweet and caring. This will just make things difficult for me."
She was very well aware of the strong influence Justin had over her feelings and her mind. She was already struggling to lead a normal life without letting everyone around her see what a pathetic mess she was without him.
If he continued to talk to her so sweetly like he did when they were dating, she was worried she would end up losing the last string of control she had over her emotions.
"I don\'t want you to go anywhere, not anymore," He stated. "I want you to stay, I want to stay with me."
Not waiting for her to say anything, Justin leaned forward and claimed her lips.
When her soft lips touched his, he tightened his grip on her waist and deepened the kiss.
Taken aback by the sudden kiss, Elsa widened her eyes in shock.
She placed her hand on his shoulder and pulled away. "Are you serious?" She couldn\'t believe what he just said.
"You want me to stay? Y-You—"
Cutting her off, he said, "I want us to get back together but before you give me an answer, I want you to think it through."
Pausing for a while, he explained, "Things aren\'t the same as they used to be. Three years ago, it was just you and me but now it will always be you, me and Edward."
When she frowned, he added, "Edward is my son, he calls me dad. If we get together again, you will be a mom of a three year old."
"You think I don\'t know that?" Elsa frowned. "Technically I would have been his mom three years ago if you hadn\'t cast me away."
"Is this why you broke up with me? Is it because you thought I would have a problem with being Edward\'s mom?"
When he did not say anything, she scoffed, "Oh my God, I cannot believe this. And here I thought you know me."
"Justin, I don\'t mind being a mom for hundreds of kids if they are a part of your life," she stated. "I will happily embrace everything that is a part of your life. I love you, I will love everything that comes with you."
"And it\'s Edward for God\'s sake, that kid burps and I fall in love with him all over again," she exclaimed.
When he did not say anything, Elsa frowned deeper. "Now say something, why are you quiet?"
"What if I die after we get married and you have to take care of Edward all by yourself?" Justin knew how silly he sounded but this was one of the many things he was worried about the most.
"Did they give you any sedatives or something?" She wiggled out of his embrace. "I am not having this conversation with you when you are drowsy."
"Elsa I am not drowsy—"
"Then what the f*uck is wrong with you?" She snapped. "Why are you suddenly asking me all these silly and pathetic questions?"
Without waiting for his reply, she asked, "Tell me honestly, is this why you broke up with me?"
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