Chapter Volume 3, 10 - I Was Finally Out
Chapter 10: I Was Finally Out
Translator: Night FuryProofread by DragonRider
[Love Monarchical type Girlfriend]: She was sinking. She finally sank to the dark abyss.
Then the hole on the ice layer started to restore itself. At last, it was recovered to its original shape and completely divided the two side.
I really wished that I could show up on the surface with her if it was possible… However, I knew it would never happen. One of us had to stay at the other side to maintain the balance. Otherwise this place would collapse.
So, it was time for me to leave… I had a feeling that I was becoming bigger and bigger.
As the process continued, I finally could touch that light which I had been longing for.
Actually, it was not my body that had turned bigger. It was my conscious that was spreading now. Specifically speaking, I scattered and disappeared in this body and gradually filled it with my self-consciousness. That was why I felt that I had become bigger.
The other me changed place with me through having a dream.
Thus, as long as I could finish the ‘Waking up’ part that was left by her, I could go outside right now.
When I felt that I couldn’t get bigger anymore and my consciousness had already touched the body. I knew there was only one thing left for me to do.
To wake up, I needed to open my eyes first.
When the light that I had desired suddenly shined in my eyes, it dazzled me a little bit.
My body still felt a bit heavy. So I closed my all my fingers and loosened all of them in order to slowly feel my body.
“You are awake, lady.” “Good morning, Shirley.” I turned around and smiled at Shirley. After that, I straightened up and sat up.
“Ah…” Shirley opened her eyes a bit more widely while covering her mouth with her hands. It was obvious that she was a little stunned.
She knew that I was not the other me from the first glance. Well done, Shirley.
A woman in a while gown was sitting on the bedside. She was a psychiatrist whose name was He Mengyu. And today she was asked to diagnose my condition.
Then this doctor said that she wanted to meet the other personality, which was me. So she just exchanged place with me.
“Doctor He, right? Thanks for willing to diagnose for me.” “Hmm… So you are the other personality of Ji Lianbing?”
Doctor cut to the chase directly and asked about my identity seriously.
Ho ho, she was quite impatient. However, Cheng Jun was also someone who spoke his mind bluntly… Thinking of that, I nodded and replied her with a smile, “That’s right. I am the other personality.” Doctor He squinted her eyes and stared at my face for a long time while I looked at her smilingly with my head tilted.
Maybe she was trying to tell if I was acting. Although my personality had changed, my appearance still remained the same.
After all, I was not a character from the cartoon who could change her personality along with her appearance.
“If you have any questions, you can simply just ask. I feel so shy being watched by you like this.” I said. “… Although I don’t know you well, I can still sense the difference between you and the other you who I have just met before. Unless your acting skill is good enough to fool me. Hmm… that is very unlikely.” “Doctor, I already told you. There is no need for me to trick you. Our lady do have two personalities.” Shirley said hurriedly. She was the one who had invited Doctor He to diagnose me. It seemed that she wanted me to combine with my principle personality so that I could have a complete spirit.
Since Sherley was too insistent about this and the doctor had already arrived, the other me had to let her take a look… As a result, the other me seized this chance to exchange place with me.
“To tell the truth, I was shocked when I heard that it was the lady of the Ji Shi corporation who wanted to be diagnosed by me. After all, I am a psychiatrist. And it’s not like you want me to treat some diseases like depressive disorder or phobia. You are suffering from a dissociative identity disorder which is as knotty as amnesia… Pardon me for speaking frankly, at first I thought it was your prank by calling me here because you are just so bored.”
“Ha ha, it is reasonable to think like that.” In fact, Shirley and Cheng Jun were the only two people who knew about my existence. Even the maids who served me all day didn’t notice that.
It was because the other me always played a leading role, even for now. As long as she wanted, I would be dragged into the abyss again.
“So, what’s your name?”
“Huh? Of course it is Ji Lianbing. Ha, I’m not muddleheaded enough to forget my name.”
“I didn’t mean that. You are the other personality but you don’t have your own name?”
“Well… name? If you really want one, you can call me Soft Bing.”
“Soft Bing? As the word soft? I see… it fits you very well. Did you come up with that name by yourself? Or the other you has given you that name?”
“No, neither. Some other person has named me that.” It was more like a nickname, but I still reckoned it as my name since it was given by Cheng Jun.
Ho ho. And I was such a fan of this name.
“Hmm… Since you know about my name, it means that you and your other personality share the same memories, right?”
“That’s right. But I was only able to see those memories without sensing them. So technically, I have never experienced any of them… Even if I could see those things with my eyes, I was still eager to go outside…” Now finally I got such a perfect chance, I would definitely make good use of it!
Ah~ When could we finish this diagnosis?
I really wanted to see Cheng Jun right now.
“I didn’t know you two share the same memories… That’s a very special case. Normally the principle personality and the secondary personality of the patient who has dual personalities are separated and don’t even know each other’s existence. Also, your memories should be fragmental… However, you two are able to share memories together…” That was a special case indeed.
I couldn’t remember how all of this had begun, but I knew that I was just a thought of her at the beginning. Then this thought totally broke out as the other me had wanted to strangle Cheng Jun, and I had been separated ever since then… Come to think about it, she had wanted to let me die on the vine at the first place.
However, I was born from her from the shell in a brand new posture with my affection to Cheng Jun.
Being contrary to the other me who was obsessed with death, I was the other side of Ji Lianbing who had been born with the joy of life.
We were the positive and negative sides of a same person. However, we always remained back-to-back instead of face-to-face.
So I really doubted if we would ever shake hands… Well, of course I would always hope for that~ Ho ho, if she blushed and wasn’t willing to reach her hand to me. I would definitely hold her hand without any hesitation~
“I should say this first, your situation is very tough right now. I have also treated patients who had multiple personalities. Most of the time, I would treat them with hypnotism in order to get back their lost memories. In that way, I could merge the patient’s dissociated personalities. But in your case… I can’t be sure if I could do the same thing on you.”
“So that is what it is. Ha ha ha, that’s not so bad~”
“… You never thought about going back to your original state?”
“Well, I only agreed to see you because Shirley has invited you.”
Doctor He seemed like a clever person. She should understand my meaning as I had already made it clear that there was no chance for merging the two of us.
Even if I was the one who brought up that idea, the other me would surely refuse.
She would certainly said with a look of disgust, “You want me to accept you? Stop kidding me. Why would I accept such a gross personality so that I could be disgusted?” Or saying something like that.
“Looks like I have made an unnecessary move by coming here… Well, the servant here is the one who invited me, so I still have to fulfil my duty as your doctor. I will pay a visit to you every Saturday afterwards. I am looking forward to your cooperation.”
“No problem, actually I also want her to accept me… But unluckily she doesn’t have the same idea.”
“Really… The principle personality resists the merging procession? I see. So now can you let her come back?”
“No, I can’t. She told me that she wouldn’t come out during this period.”
“All right… So that would be all. I should get going right now. Next time I am here, I hope you can tell me why she won’t accept you.” After she had finished the diagnosis, Doctor He was sent away by other maids.
I got up from the bed and took off the clothes on me. In the meantime, Shirley called me by my side,
“My lady…”
“I want to see him.”
“My lady?”
“Shirley, tell me where he is. I want to see him now!”
“Master Jun Cheng is in the Tianfu Square, talking with Xiang Yuexun…”
“Perfect!” Now, I was off to see him right away.
I was unable to contain my excitement any longer.
After I changed into the dress which I had worn on our first date, I rushed out immediately.
I didn’t take the car. Instead, I simply just ran on the road.
I didn’t know why but I just could feel where Cheng Jun was without looking at the map.
On my way, I recognized the familiar smell.
Ahhh, was I able to see the people I had been dying to meet right after I had come out?
I knew it. He must be close by.
I looked around on the platform bridge, searching for him.
However, Cheng Jun was not here at all. But I did have smelled something… What…?
It was not Cheng Jun. It was his sister.
It was the one with the pony tail who looked livelier.
I believed her name was An Keling.
And right now I could see her talking to someone from the bridge.
Then I asked Shirley who had followed me all the way there,
“Shirley, what are they talking about right now? Summarizing their conversation in thirty words for me.”
“Master Jun Cheng’s sister is asking a favor to her friend in order to get the medicine to cure Master Jun Cheng.”
“What? Doesn’t she know that Cheng Jun has already left the hospital?”
“Actually, Master Jun Cheng made that decision by himself and didn’t mention it to anyone in advance.”
“I see… then let’s just go back, Shirley.”
“We have already come here. Don’t you want to see Master Jun Cheng?”
“Not today, I’ll just have to endure that.” Hmm… Though I did feel a bit reluctant, I would let her sister meet him today. He should be with his family after coming out of the hospital.
As long as I could restrain myself for today, I was going to see Cheng Jun tomorrow! Ho ho~ As I was thinking of that, I suddenly sensed a weird smell when I wanted to turn around and left.
That pungent smell came from… my back.
“Eh…?” I turned around and saw a tall and thin guy.
He was in a neat suit and wore a pair of glasses. To be honest, he was very good-looking.
However, there was a heavy blood smell coming from his body.
And he was looking at… sister Keling?
The expression in his eyes reminded me of the other me when she was looking at the corpse.
Suddenly, I learned that the man in front of me was just like the other me who was obsessed with that kind of mistake.
But was Keling one of his target?
No, I couldn’t let him get what he wanted.
If Keling was dead, Cheng Jun must be so sad. And I really didn’t want to see him crying.
Well, then I would just have to get rid of the man in front of me.