BXBX NOVEL Chapter 102 - Lose Him - Part【5】
"Yes, I am."
"Forgive me."
"You always ask me to forgive you as if it is effortless to do so, Phobos. Why must I constantly keep forgiving you for your sins? Why must I pardon you for this when you do not respect my family or my wishes?"
My male sighs softly raising his right palm to affectionately stroke my cheek. "I have lived in the wild all my life and going to a more civilised pack makes me feel uneasy."
"Then what about Deimos\'s pack?"
"That used to be my home, Theia. They know what I am and have gotten used to what I possess within. But your old pack I have merely been to twice, they will dread me when I step on their lands and it is the last thing I want to feel radiating from your family towards me. Fear."
"Trust me when I say this if I do not fear you no one else will. If any wolf dares to look at you in a negative way I will fight them for you, my male." I whisper and he smiles up at me.
"Theia I...I am not perfect and I lack as your male in several ways. But I love you with the entirety of my being and I will do anything if it will make you happy. And if going to meet your family truly shall please you then I will come with you. I will stand there beside you whilst you introduce me to your parents."
"You would do that for me?"
He shifts to the side and bends down to pick up something from the floor. Turning back to me he hands me a paper lantern. "What is this?"
"We have these here as well, we use them for the pups to play with sometimes. I know it looks different compared to what you are used to but it is a part of our home that we shall share in your family\'s celebration."
"Oh, Phobos." Binding my limbs around his neck I draw him down to me giving him a crushing hug filled with my love for him.
But he rapidly shoves me away frightening me in the process and begins to hyperventilate. He flings himself farther away from me with his palm laid over his mouth as though sealing it. "What is wrong?" I ask fearfully for my male fights to breathe clutching onto his chest as though his lungs are closing up. He attempts to squirm farther grunting and groaning like he is in unrelenting agony.
"I-I need you to run. G-Get to Vdce\'s tent." He manages to spit out his words my moon blessed looks as though he is being smothered.
"How can I leave you like this, you stupid male?! Tell me what is wrong, are you in pain?" I weep rushing to him getting on my knees endeavouring to figure out what is happening to this male.
He gags as though bile is soaring to his mouth, razor-sharp claws are quick to elongate and he splits our carpet writhing in relentless anguish. "Run! N-Now." He chokes out wheezing for air coiling his fingers around his neck strangling himself for he is trying to knock himself out.
"I shall get Vdce, hold on for me," I say wiping my tears whilst getting up and hurrying towards the main door yet when I unlock it and attempt to step out a calloused palm is swift to grip my right ankle to yank me down to the ground back into the cabin and I fall hard the totality of my back taking the direct hit.
When I open my eyes I am met with glowing golden orbs that curiously stare down at me. "No..no." I shake my head in disbelief of my reality tears gushing down my red cheeks for my flesh is immobilized by the fear I have for this wild beast. His eyes stray down my face to descend over the side of my neck right where Phobos\'s mark lies, I struggle against his chest with my hands while berserkly booting his belly with my knees but nothing works for he remains in the same position he is in with me beneath him and him hovering over my trembling body.
He leans low to let out his tongue and sensually laps up the surface of my neck as though he is preparing it. "Phobos." I whimper out loud and the beast snarls at my face his saliva dripping down his chin to leak on my face. He finds it bothersome for each rare time he is here I beckon Phobos for help.
I shift my face to the side my horror of the situation conquering me and this he takes to his advantage rather he thinks I am giving him my submission for within a few seconds he immerses his teeth deep into the tender flesh of my neck and an ear-splitting scream cuts past my throat to the excruciating pain that overcomes me.
Deeper he goes shredding through skin and meat as though he wishes to imprint his territory over Phobos\'s mark. I choke on my blood that pools in my mouth my throat clogging up and I am unable to breathe the room around me spins and turns blurry yet the beast still feeds...feasting on my life. He does not know what he is doing all he grasps is that he is marking me but he is unaware he is killing me at the same time.
His teeth remain impaled buried within my neck for a few more agonising minutes while deafening piercing gnarls boom through his chest, he is pleased with his masterpiece and he is revealing to Phobos that I equally belong to him as well. I cough out more blood raw tears still continuing to pour for a part of me feels that my life shall be taken away this instant. When he extracts his canines from within my flesh it gives way to the outpour of spurts of blood that splatters everywhere and coats the floor and wall red.
The beast is unaware that I am being drained to my death for he sits by me with a tilted head reviewing the mark he has given me checking to see if he has done a good job and once he is convinced he finally gives back the control to my male.
When my eyes do encounter my male\'s an immediate need to close my own and not behold the pure anguish he possesses in his eyes bounds me for it pains my heart. "No...please no. No! No! No!" He hollers noisily shaking his head in denial of what has occurred whilst tearing off his shirt holding it to my bloody gaping ripped neck. When he boosts me from the ground I whimper distinctly for I am unable to bear the torture.
"Stay with me, my moonlight." He pleads with me whilst racing outside into the fields and I peer up at my male who is massively afraid and panicking beneath the starlit sky. I have never seen him this terrified before. Phobos, it is all right. I am fine. I wish to pacify his despair but I cannot speak for I am still hacking and suffocating on my blood.
"Vdce!" He roars halfway to her tent his voice rumbling out echoing around our lands and it takes her merely a few seconds to come out alarmed by the desperate call of her Alpha. "Pomozte m en." He tells her and her eyes broaden when she inspects me a perceptible hitch in her breath follows and she instantly beckons her females.
(Help my female)
"Co jsi udlal, Alpha?" She asks as she gently picks me up from his arms with the help of her wolves.
(What have you done, Alpha?)
While they transfer me inside the tent advising Phobos to remain outside I observe the way my king plummets to his knees his head bowed low, his balled fists brutally pounding the ground whilst grievous tears trickle down his cheeks. Gut-wrenching cries rip past his throat and he mourns for what has been done to me while gazing down at his tremoring bloody hands.
I suffer with him crying feebly for I feel it unquestionably in my bones the ultimate outcome of this. The painful decision he will make in order to protect me. I...I shall lose him.. I shall lose my male.