BXBX NOVEL Chapter 462: My Liam Hates
Chapter 462: My Liam Hates
Lana gulped. She could feel Liam\'s emotions with the tone of his voice. He was mocking her and she could understand him.
He wanted her to tell him everything. He was waiting for her to open up because Lana did not open up to him yet, she did not tell her side of the story as to why she left. Yes, he heard her when she was talking that one time but she thought he was asleep that time.
Lana heaved a long sigh and looked at Liam intently. She was ready. She wanted to tell Liam how she struggled and why she had to leave.
"It was very hard at that time Liam. You know… My mother was my everything. Before you came into my life… She was already there with me. She\'s everything to me Liam…" she started and was about to explain herself to him.
Liam did not interrupt Lana as she narrated everything. She told him everything. His hand balled into a fist, hearing how Kyle was with her all along while he was not. He did not know whether he should be glad that Lana mentioned everything, not leaving any single detail of her life at country A or be mad at her because it hurt him to know that Lana let other people know about her whereabouts but not him.
In a way, he could still understand her but still, it was too much hurt for him to handle. He felt like a nobody in Lana\'s life for her not to have had trust in him and consider what they had.
"I\'m really sorry Liam. I know it was selfish of me and I also hated myself all along the process. I hated the fact that I was too weak and that I couldn\'t cope up with all that in such a short time. All those times, it was you I was thinking of… Hoping that you will understand me If I ever manage to return." Lana explained in a stuttering voice.
"You knew I will wait for you, Lana. You just had to tell me what you felt and I would have been willing to wait for however long you needed me to, but you did not say a word. You trusted someone else instead of trusting and opening up to me. Do you know how that feels? It makes me feel like shi*t… Like I\'m useless..."
"No. That\'s not true! Of all people it\'s you, it\'s only you whom I will always trust but… it was really too much Liam, my mother\'s death… I kept telling myself it\'s not your fault and I know it\'s all my fault. But that scene kept on haunting me whenever I would look at you, my mom\'s face with all that blood…
Oh God, if only you knew how terrorizing it was, how my heart ached every time that scene came back to me and I felt like crying and howling at the top of my voice but kept it all within because I didn\'t want you to see me like that.
I didn\'t want to burden you, Liam. So I had to leave… That was the best option for me at that time. I had to let you go because...
It\'s because I was not confident… I was not confident that I could still overcome it. I was afraid that I would never be able to come out of that horrible place and I didn\'t want you to hold on to me for that long.
I wanted you to have a choice in moving forward with your life or even have another someone you deserve in your life because I knew I don\'t deserve someone like you. You are too good for such a mess like me." Lana opened up her thoughts.
She was full of fear at that time. Trauma and insecurities ate her up inside and she did not want to pull Liam in that hell hole with her.
There was only silence and after some time, Liam stood up and said, "I will rest now, Lana. You should go back to your office. I need my time alone."
Lana watched Liam go inside his private room. She froze on her seat. For a while, she carefully thought about what to do. She wanted to follow Liam inside his private room but she was not sure if it would be the best idea.
She heaved a long deep sigh and in the end decided to leave Liam alone so he could have his own space to think. She would try to appease him later, at home… Convince him that she had now changed a lot and she would never leave him no matter what happened.
She went out of Liam\'s office and walked towards the elevator. Before she could press on the button, the doors suddenly opened and she saw Sarah inside.
Lana looked at her blankly and asked, "Aren\'t you stepping out?"
Sarah had that sarcastic poker smile on her face and replied, "I changed my mind. I forgot to buy something. Aren\'t you getting in?"
Lana smiled with a nod and stepped inside the elevator.
"I see you visited Liam," Sarah commented.
"Yeah, I brought him lunch." Lana simply answered.
She heard Sarah scoff but Lana it.
"You should stop whatever you\'re doing now. You left and I\'m sure, you will do it all over again with the same excuse, the very next chance you get… You\'ve been too selfish and you\'ve hurt him enough.
You should let Liam have someone he deserves. A murderer\'s daughter will destroy Liam\'s reputation and his firm that he built with so much sweat and hard work," Sarah whispered.
Lana turned to Sarah. She was surprised Sarah was aware of it.
"Did Liam tell you about me?" she asked because she was sure that her profile was too private. Anything regarding her past and her real identity was kept confidential. Sarah… How did she know about her? Unless Liam told her so?
Sarah had a smirk on her face and whispered, "If I were you, I\'d just stay away from Liam. That would be for the best… for your best… or else you will only destroy him and his family later on, again…"
Lana\'s eyebrows snapped. It was a threat that she did not like.
She coyly smiled at Sarah and casually said, "Don\'t burden yourself with matters that you\'re not related to and will never be related to, dear. I\'m sure Liam and I can both handle family matters together. I do appreciate your concern but If I were you… I\'d just mind my own business."
The elevator doors finally opened, Lana moved closer and whispered in Sarah\'s ear, "I bet Liam will never bother to look at you even if I were dead. My Liam hates those desperate women who chase after him… Since he loves to do the chasing, like how he chased me…"