BXBX NOVEL Chapter 145 - Forgiveness
Ethan gazed at his mother and as soon as he heard her saying she was willing to answer to whatever he wanted, all the questions he wanted to ask faded away in the blink of an eye. Probably to the anxiety he was in or for the agitation but it was like he couldn't remember any question at all.
"I am waiting!" his mother said raising her voice and widening her arms.
"Why...Why...How..." He had never felt that vulnerable before, usually, he had always a word for everything and his abrupt personality would usually get full control in every situation. But not that time, in front of his mother he felt speechless and helpless, even though he was double her side and so powerful that he could probably kill her with a push. Yet he was the one weak in front of her.
"How could you leave me, you're my mother..." his voice sounded more desperate than Ethan wanted to sound.
Her mother took a deep breath, "because I didn't want you. It was just a night of passion and you weren't supposed to be born, your father was the King and it would be a scandal if..."
He felt less vulnerable when the anger he had run toward his veins and electric strokes gave him a tingling sensation all over her hands, "you could have kept me! And tell nobody I was William's son."
Hearing that answer left his mother speechless for few seconds, she knew he was right yet she couldn't feel sorry for him and she didn't know how to justify her behavior because probably she would do again the same thing.
"Why should I have to keep you if I didn't want you in the first place? I only wanted your father and you became a further reason for him to leave me." His mother said, with the most empty facial expression and a calm voice as if she wasn't stabbing his son for the umpteenth time with her rudeness.
"I don't even know why I came here in the first place, You're just a hopeless person who releases her repressed anger against others because she can't accept the fact that nobody will ever want her nor love her." Ethan found his courage and with his usual rough attitude, he spat all his anger.
"That's a shame I will bond with William and you will stare at us be happy without you."
The old maid's eyes widened and sparkled, she murmured out, "W-William?"
But Ethan pushed her against the three strongly, "don't even think to dare to come to see him. Because I swear to God if you ever come closer to us I will kill you before you can even talk to him."
His mother looked at him with a confused yet scared expression on her face, but Ethan offered a nervous smile, "sounds familiar to you?"
He giggled nervously and then looked at her with the most furious glance before turning around and walking away.
"Please… I want to see him." She screamed but Ethan turned around to shook his head keeping his eyebrows narrowed, "If you're willing to risk your life he is at the castle with me and John. Try to come." Ethan's voice was so threatening that his mother felt like she would burst into tears.
"How dare you.." she murmured but Ethan didn't waste additional time to turn around and instead disappeared to rush toward the castle.
When he entered home everyone looked at him waiting for answers even if his disappointed and angry eyes were already revealing enough about how the situation turned around.
"She said very mean things about me and confessed that you, William, left her because of me and that she never wanted me," Ethan said sighing and pulling behind his hair.
"I am sorry..." William reached him and hugged him tightly, his embrace lasted few minutes before he departed and whispered, "It wasn't your fault, she told me she was pregnant but I was young and scared and already in love with another woman. She seemed unwilling to listen to me and told me she would find a way to miscarriage. I offered her money and I was willing to pay a nanny to help her and offer maintenance but she didn't want to raise you alone.".
Ethan smiled at his father, he appreciated his forgiveness for having stabbed him, and even if the relationship he formed with John and his father was still far from being a family he was still happy to be accepted and given a second chance. His biggest wish was to have a family and finally be accepted and if it wasn't asking too much loved by both his parents but since her mother rejected him for the third time he gave up that dream. It was still better than what he imagined, and if he could travel back the time he would have never stabbed William.
Roselyn began to walk toward Ethan and gestured with a nod to John to follow her, she gently pushed John's back toward his brother who understood her intention, and even with a glimpse of hesitation he still hugged him.
William widened his hands more to embrace both his two sons and with a proud happy gaze he said, "I am proud of you and I am happy to see you reconciled."
William departed from the hug and watched his sons looking at each other in the eyes, Ethan hinted a smile, "I am sorry for everything. I guess I gave up to anger too easily and ended up hurting people who didn't deserve to be hurt at all." He gazed down the floor in a sorry tone of voice.
"It's fine, I hurt many innocent people too, the most important thing is to understand our mistakes and take the lesson to grow and improve." John smiled, with a convincing smile.
"This is the closest thing I ever had to a family," Ethan said gazing at all of them.
"We are your family now.." His father said, and John nodded, "yes, we are."