BXBX NOVEL Chapter 344 - Grieving
John convinced Sebastian to stay with him and Roselyn for a while and then decide where he wanted to stay when they came back home in Kratez.
Their gazes and sad faces were enough to announce the death of their father. Roselyn went to hug John and whispered, "I am so sorry love."
She wished she could say to him something more supportive than that but she knew there was nothing she could do to soften up the pain John was feeling right then. She had met him when he was grieving already so she knew how much he suffered back then. Sometimes silence is the best healing for wounds that won't mend.
Sebastian had still eyes filled with tears and he barely spoke, his gaze was set blankly on the floor and his mind was probably immersed in thoughts regrets sadness of what their life could have been if he was still alive.
He was so mad at life for making fun of him, giving him the benefit of the doubt but then never letting him reach happiness to the full.
They spent the remaining of the day surviving, barely speaking and eating and then both John and Sebastian locked themselves in their rooms and cried their tears out.
Roselyn sighed, she held back the tears and when she was alone few tears fell from her eyes, she cared about William and she was so sorry for John that it was like she could feel his pain.
Now that William was dead they had to send the letter to every inhabitant of the village and then move back to the castle, his death happened so fast that the couple didn't even have the time to figure out what to do or to plan the situation perfectly. Moving to the caste may be a problem for the kids, especially for Elijah who was a vampire and who had never been close to any human.
The things to fix were a lot, and Roselyn had to take care of it all on her own because John was already too busy thinking of his father and his funeral to bother his mind with a further concern.
The maids in the castle had been sent home and the relatives had been informed in a few hours of the loss, Victor made the calls since John didn't want to talk to them.
In one hour Abigail, Victor, and Daniel were all in the castle to stay together and support John and Sebastian on such an awful day.
One of the worst deaths are definitely when those happen when you least expect it and you keep wondering if you underestimated a symptom or if you did something wrong.
You even regret not having spent enough time with that person because the last thought that occurred to your mind was that they would die suddenly.
All those thoughts harrassed John and for the first time in all the years he dated Roselyn he regretted not having spent more time with his family and not going to visit him more often.
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One week passed by, John was still barely talking to anyone, he spent time with his family but he was like he lost one part of his heart and he could do nothing to fix the pieces together. Each thought his mind processed, every smile he did, it was referred to his father.
Some of the relatives he met told him that William was still with him, that he could look at him from the sky but John didn't believe that kind of thing.
He didn't believe his father was there, he didn't care if they were right, John wanted him next to him, wanted to listen to him talk, he wanted to melt in his warm embraces and feel safe and happy whenever his father touched his hand.
But he couldn't have anything of that, when he feel sad now he couldn't go to him when he needed some tip, William wouldn't be there to tell him what would be the best thing to do and although he had a family and someone to ask to, he still wanted that person to be William.
His heart weighed a little less in his chest and his forehead creased a bit more, his voice was low as if he forced and struggled to talk whenever anyone spoke a word to him. His life became all of a sudden darker and this time, the darkness would last forever.
Roselyn was so worried, John didn't talk to her seriously in days and he seemed so miserable that he was looking at his life passing by him as fast as a train. Every time it stopped, he didn't get in because he didn't want to live without his father by his side.
Elijah and Felicity missed their father very much, they talked to him and involved him in their conversations, they even trained harder with the hope that their progress would create a smile on his face but every effort was in vain.
John was unmovable, and Sebastian was just the same, the only difference was that Sebastian cried more so he expressed and released his emotions and his distress my crying and my complaining how life was so unfair.
When he did Elijah was always next to him to offer him a shoulder to cry on.
In a few minutes Elijah convinced him to play with him and distracted him, but with John was different, when he shut the world out it was almost impossible to make him feel better.
The more the days passed the more Roselyn knew that if the situation didn't improve, their family and their life would forever be affected by his father.
Roselyn sighed, getting on the bed where John was sleeping, she leaned closer to him and as he slept she gently placed a soft kiss on his cheek.
"I miss you," she whispered before she turned to the side and fell asleep right after.