BXBX NOVEL Chapter 189
Chapter 189: I’m selfish too!
[Before Alex’s talk with the forest fairies’ queen.]
Alex left Stella alone in the Deathwill Castle. He asked her to look after Celia and make sure the little dullahan wasn’t feeling lonely.
He then headed to Remia’s room.
“I heard you wanted to talk, Alex. I also didn’t have a chance to properly thank you for your assistance.” Remia turned around, smiling at Alex.
She was pretty busy because of the impending battle. However, Remia would always find a time for him. Not only did she have to thank him for his support, but Remia also wanted to thank Stella from the bottom of her heart.
For some reason, Stella was gone.
Alex smiled back, looking quite confident, “Remia… Do you still like me?”
Remia blinked her eyes, her cheeks flushing red. She didn’t expect that question out of nowhere, particularly in their current situation. For a second, she thought that Alex asked this question because she could die in a week.
But she had a feeling that something else must have happened.
She replied while holding her arm tightly, “Yes… I like you.”
Alex took a second to collect his thoughts, then licked his lips, “I will tell you what had happened in the dungeon… and about my selfish and hypocrite side.
Please, don’t stop me,” Alex said before letting Remia even reply.
He then started talking about his meeting with Eva Mora. It was easier to talk about his heart in this way. He didn’t coat his words… He didn’t hide anything from Remia, talking about stuff that he had already gone through with Stella.
“I want people to look at Deathwill in a better light… After all this time, I just want this surname to be mine… When people say Deathwill, I want them to think about my happy family and me.
I want them to think about our hardships and how we overcome them all… I mean, we are still far away from it… There’s the Lost Kingdom and many people from the Deathwill Kingdom that harbor hatred toward Elias Deathwill, his family, and his allies.
You are the first person I helped from this long list of wronged people, so you can tell how long this path will be… But I will never stop… I will tread on this path going forward with my wives on my side. Yes, even Schnee, as I have been yearning to see that kitty for a while now… She’s working hard, just like the rest.
So… I will do everything for our happiness… even if it meant that I have to stop helping forest fairies to make a connection with Eva Mora,” Alex whispered, feeling much better than before.
He no longer blamed himself that much.
Alex added, “I only thought about your mother and you. When the dungeon appeared, only safety of you two was important to me. You are my important friend, and your mother is simply your mother.
And my feelings burst out… because the death of many fairies overlapped with the image I have been fearing recently… The image of my beloveds dying in my hands… I fear it so much I went mad at the villain,” Alex explained.
Remia gazed at him without blinking. She used to be quite red, like a tomato, but now her cheeks looked much better. She had a rosy color on her face, a gentle smile, and a pleasant mood swirling around herself.
She looked so charming that Alex just stood dazed, his eyes not blinking at all. He surely would never forget this image of a beautiful fairy princess.
Remia whispered, “I’m the same, Alex.”
Alex widened his eyes a little.
Remia continued, “When I fell in love with Elias Deathwill, I dropped everything… I followed him to his castle… and worked for his sake. I wanted him to notice me… And when he gave me his hints, I worked even harder.
What did it mean? I utterly gave up on my family and forest fairies… I love them all, yet I followed my heart… If that’s not selfish heart, then what is it?” Remia asked with a gentle smile.
Back then, the world had no players. The situation of demi-human tribes was much worse as they regularly fought in tournaments for the land. Two demi-human kingdoms often clashed with each other while keeping all humans away from themselves.
Remia wasn’t powerful, but her skills could help her land significantly. She would be a great asset should anyone try to take the whole tribe head-on!
“I could always say an excuse that I would become a bridge between forest fairies and humans… But the reality was that I was just a stupid girl who fell in love. Afterward, I swore to become stronger and independent… I wore robes to hide my royal status and ventured around the world to seek poison techniques…
And then, I met you… I found a new confidence within myself. I found new strength and a new desire… As we continued to nurture our friendship, I knew more about my feelings.
I also meet your beloveds, your girlfriend from another world, and little dullahan. Everyone is so lovely that I have been wanting to not just have your heart… but to be a part of your family…
I don’t know if I will be ever able to stay next to everyone. I know that you fear it, Alex… I was here when you talked about the favorite with Olivia, wasn’t I?” Remia faintly smiled, then looked up.
She gathered enough courage to say her feelings, “I might not be as strong as Deathwill Sisters and Olivia… I might fall behind, too… But I don’t care! I am selfish, just like the person I’ve fallen for! I will keep thinking about you and give you enough clues that I am still into you!
Unless you utterly kick me away from your life, I will be selfish for as long as I feel like, Alex!” Remia bit her lips, looking at Alex with a peculiar expression.